A little different Monday...

Monday Morning is as usual where it's our morning exercise period together with my working team and manager. After exercise, we went for lunch and then headed to office to settle some work and helped clients to handle some stuff. After that, I went back home to shower, rest a while and had my dinner. Normally in the evening if not meeting clients, I will probably work at home too. But this evening is a little different:

As my client was busy with work, so we postponed to meet up on sat. Well, since is end of the month too, last min decided maybe to give myself an evening time off to relax in somewhere... Well, went to Music Dreamer Cafe, invited by Sean last nite, to listen to others-Audience sang. Nice! Relaxing! Feeling good! Can work better tmr mayb... Music really can help to relax... hehe! :) Yup!

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Speech!

Back from a dinner at cafe cartel. Bathed and now looking thru some websites and checking my emails. Saw some celebrities' blogs and saw YiFong's news in Dasmond's blog. So went to click on the link in Dasmond's blog where there is a video showing wat is exactly the news is abt. After seeing the news, got some stuff in my mind to share maybe:

1st, I agreed that all newbies in whatever line need a lot of trainings, especially is on-job training. As long as it will not hurt other's feelings, you can used all the experiences gained to improve your own job skills. Like me been a financial advisor for 2 yrs plus, all sorts of rejections had been thru. Don't buy, don't ans my calls, slam my calls when they heard was my voices, don't believe me when I'm telling them the truth, etc. Thousands of them, you named it, I had experienced them all. I did my own calling to find new clients, meeting new clients, close or no close deals, some clients are even my friends now. Some of course no. Maybe of some reasons. Well, I don't blame them as there are so many competitors in the market. But 1 thing for sure is the hurting partner is always me and not the prospects that I'm meeting with. Because, I got the rejections and some really hurt me unintentionally. So the more hurt I got, that's probably the reason also why it will help me move on because I slowly learn from all the encounters I had. 'Move on': That's what I need to tell myself with.

But jobs like reporters, I think newbies need a lot of on-job training with 'old ones' I think, like tagged along with the old reporters to see how they do it and learn from them. What they do, they say, they write make a real difference as it will be seen on papers by millions of pple in Singapore or even others countries. They will affect readers' thinkings based on what they write. They will hurt pple unintensionally and I think that's really a No-No thing to do. Pple gained information from newspapers or books. Me is one of them so it's impt the info is a gd one, useful and of no hurt. Our Singapore standard is not bad one. Hopefully it will not drop and will be even better.

Talking abt standard, my job is getting higher standards too as MAS is setting a lot soon. I hope I can do my best and provide more information and services to my clients too. I always afraid not providing the best. So every single clients I will pay a lot of attention on them. Whether close deal or not after x number of months or even year(s) later, I've did my best for them. Learning and hoping I can fulfill a task this yr.......

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Out with mama...

Today planned to bring mum out to walk walk. So morning aft breakfast we went out. Walking around and run errands as well. As today is a wkday, so not many pple are out as many pple are still working. So good to walk around and not so crowded. Haha...

Well, nice feeling to slowly brought mum around. Although not to many places, but we did something slowly to what mum like to do maybe. Then when lunch time, I brought mum to Sunshine Plaze to eat dim sum, recommended by a friend. Well, pple who read this blog of mine, the place is called Victor's Kitchen. Food is all done by a HK chef. Freshly made. Nice! Really! Go try it mayb! :)

Anyway, nice feeling. Maybe is because I dun always doing this with mum. Juz hope mum had enjoyed today too although she seems a bit tired aft the walk. Well, will find another day to bring mum out to walk walk other places again. :)

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Fighting in heart...

After having a life and death experience 2 days back, these 2 days got a bit busy. Busy with recovery of my laptop which suddenly cock up too, busy with my work, busy with settling down with my feelings, mayb... Haha... I'm been taught to move on and learn from mistakes. But things happened to me caused me to think a lot. Having determination to move on is one of my positive side, thinking too much is my negative side mayb. But thinking back and ahead if it is to change for the better, why not? But I understand thinking back and not moving ahead is the worst of all.

To me, life can be simple. With simple 3 meals a day and can be with my loved ones, I'm more contented. To have a better life is not only for myself, I also hope can be for my parents too, whom had used almost 30 years to bring me and my sis up. I hope can know someone who not only can love me, but love my parents and be filial to them too. I know I will and I have to be filial to my future partner's parents too. Juz like my parents. Well, this still a long way to go till I got a partner 1st. Now no partner no need to worry.... Haha...

Working on my career now...... my 1st 'stepping stone' job started in 2000 which was not smooth. That's why had a career switched 2 yrs back. Well, tough as well cos I'm building a lifelong career and business. There is a lot of competitions in my line. I, True Heartedly, treat my clients with no hidden clause. Treat them like my friends. Help them as much as within my means. Hope they can feel. Hope they can really understand me in some ways. Hope my feelings are transmitted to their heart deep inside.... But to those dun understand and wish to believe the competitors cos they are closer in relationship to them, no comments! I voice out what I think I need to let you know. Choice is under the client's side. I juz sad that things may not turn out well. I juz pray hard that it will nvr happen to them. If have, then sorry. I really can't help then cos they choose to believe others but not me.

Anyway, got a drama which is quite nice on TV channel 8, on sat and sun, 7pm, abt doctors, nurses and patients... can't remember the name of this drama series... But it's nice (some parts are taken in south Africa) and meaningful. I'll watch when I'm not out and @ home. Should watch! Believe me! Who watch and think not nice can let me know. Prove to me it's really not gd!!! I welcome feedbacks!

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Crossing the road...

Hmm. A bit not sure how to start off with. But I think if anyone is reading my blog now will hit me wake up...

Today went to run errands for mama in the morning. So walked down to my nearest market area to get the stuff done. Smooth no prob, Juz in time for me to get cover for the heavy rain. Then walk walk around for a while and decided to head home. But as I'm crossing the road, hmm, something not gd happened: The road is a 2-way traffic, 1 for vehicles to go out to main road and the other is for vehicles to enter into carpark from main road. The road has no traffic light, juz a road crossing. The road where vehicles travelling out to the main road is lined up with many vehicles. The road where vehicles travelling into the carpark from the main road with a glance, no vehicle. So with not much of attention later as I thought based on previous judgement, I wanted to cross the road. WELL, problem now came.

There is a van blocking my full view before I crossed the road. So without much notice, I wanted to cross the road. Luckily I dun dashed out too fast. Suddenly a car dashed in front of me very fast, into the carpark. I was shocked at the slip second.....!!!!

Suddenly a thought came into my mind. What if I really dashed out suddenly that time??? Maybe I won't be typing this blog here now... mayb in hospital.... or mayb....

Well, for the past 1 wk, I seems to be facing the end of the life issue... 1st was the big earthquake, today was the escaped accident... hmm... the feeling is really different. Earning $$ to me seems nt impt. My brain is only thinking of family and loved ones, and some uncomplete mission like having a good partner and get married (Mum's wish for me), have kids... blah blah blah... SHIT!

So now you know why I mentioned in the beginning of the blog said you will hit me if you read this blog... :(

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Earthquake...

Ohhh... today is the X number of times where I encountered earthquake again. 1st time was during my school days, in the middle of the nite when I was listening to Radio and doing my homework. Still remembered the radio program was hosted by Dasmond Koh if not wrong. Anyway, 1st time experience earthquake was sitting on my chair where it kept rocking and I thought my head was giddy. haha...

Today's earthquake was a big shake. In fact I was in office, doing my work. Half-way thru felt the shake. Saw the door was shaking and the rest of the stuff in the room shaked too. In fact I was quite scared. Even now, still a bit scared. Meeting with earthquake so many times, I think this time round this earthquake had set a deep deep impression in my heart and the scaring scale has set to a higher level. Calling back home. My mum is scared too. So decided to go home to work then. Told my mum abt my experience in office. Kana scolding because I told her I heard the walls creaking sound, scolded me why never run downstairs for safety 1st. Well, too scared to think mayb. Anyway, now can do this post is a good sign, cos meaning I'm still alive. Haha... But still scared...

Seems like still have some small shaking feeling in the middle of the nite... Ahhhh!!! This time round is really caused my heart to be a little more weaker. Mayb ...

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People???

Read Piggy's and Dasmond's blogs... I juz want to say people have very complicated mindset to be understood. Mayb I'm wrong. But as a person who need to meet up with people and talk to them, I'm learning on how to understand them in their point of view. In term of sales, mayb I can guess their wants and don't. But if talking abt relationships or even what mindset are they having for how people will treat people, I dun really can understand unless they talk abt what is in their mind.

Sad to know some people are living in a 'jia' image; never treat people in a very truthful way. Worst kind of people is a "2-headed snake". Have!!! I've seen it. Sad!!! Someone whom I quite respect one oso turned out to be different. Sad!!! Sorry to say that I will not be giving them any respect since they treated my parents so badly too. People reading my blog will be scratching head what am I talking abt. But juz to let you all know is that people do change, not change for the better, but change for the worst!!! Mayb in my eyes only cos they might think they are in the right way. But I'll never forgive pple who treat my parents bad cos I know they have put in enough effort in looking after my grandma liao. Dun want to write abt them or my anger will come again...

But abt relationship? Sad... I like pple whom mayb have partners liao, or mayb I have a crash on them only ba. Sigh... My looks??? Normal... Mayb that's the reason cos not pretty. Well, waiting for my appt to do my braces. Beautify my teeth 1st. It's a cost. Expensive one. Step by step.

Shit! Recent mood caused me to be moody and think a lot of nonsense.... No No... Can anyone brighten up my days pls??? OK! Anyway, have to help myself... Sigh!!! Sad!!!

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Mood Down....

From the title already can tell a lot... Ya. My mood is not gd. Since dunno when already in bad state. Can't recall what has been written in my blog before. But thinking back to be in this family, I think I not only have to learn to tolerate, but have to learn to have a 'big heart' to forgive pple. But to have a big heart is real difficult. There are so many pple who are out to take advantage or made used of you; so many pple to look down on you due to the 'low-income money status' that you are in; so many idiots whom are actually your relatives but will only appears when talking about have a piece of the inheritance and nothing else... so many idiots...

Sad... very sad... have a partner for the rest of life? A person can share your sadness, happiness, bitterness, sourness...? I think not easy to find. Building my career?... Not easy too... tired and people won't understand we have our sad side too. Manager always mentioned that throw away all emotions to do work. I understand. It's Hard!!! Once a while can pass thru, but not always. I know I have to get out of this feeling soon. Hope by tmr morn it will be gone and back to norm to work. I know I can....

I have to get my work done well. So I can be in the 'above-avg income grp' where I can bring pride to my parents and show some idiots although I'm rich but yet I know how to 'treat pple with well manner' and not like them who treat pple like shit. Angry!!! I know I'm not suppose to scold them, not right. But they dun deserve my respect to them. Treating my parents so badly I can't take it. Well, no matter wat I must work real hard. Hope I can do it. Or to say in exact, I should say I can do it no matter spend how long to do it.

*Sob* ..... must be strong.... !!!

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Too Fullll.......

Today's blog is to remind myself not to eat too much. Cos now feeling real bad. Mum left a veg soup with some meat for me. Then as dinner I din eat a lot and did felt a bit hungry, I went to cook a instant mee goreng. And mum also left some 'kong ba', mushrooms and an egg for me too. Ops!!! Too much!!! Thought can finished all. Siao... almost finished all, left with half an egg and a bit of soup. But when reaching this stage, I'm too full suddenly. Keep burping. Full of gas in my stomach. Think a bit hard to digest now. Anyway, need to do some work now Hope to clear some too as waiting for my food to digest fast fast...

Tmr or shld say this morn still have a full day training. Pls stomach.... quick quick digest away the food or I will have a hard time to sleep tonite.

Hope will not fall asleep in the training... Ok do my work 1st.....

And not sure wat happened to my left arm, pain too.... aiyo... must think how I injured myself... think is my bag a bit heavy and I carried it in a wrong position and sprained it. :(

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A different Sunday...

The title is true cos u will very seldom see me woke up so so early in a Sunday. Near @ 7am woke up, wash up and together with family went to the Yellow Ribbon Walk. Sis is working under this Govt sector so jio jio parents and me to do the walk with her colleagues.

So with a set of sleepy eyes and with my running shoes which I din sayang It for more than a wk liao, went to the walk. Well, many people indeed. Hot not becos we are exercise, but the heat from the people too much lor... Anyway, dunno walk for how long, mum is tired so took the fre transport to the Yellow Ribbon Fair which is at the Prison Learning Centre (if the plc I dun remember wrongly). The organiser is good in arranging old people who can't walk further to take the transport. Anyway, din really walk a lot ard as our PM is there so some plc we can't go yet. Till when more place were opened, we were out of the compound liao.

Anyway, it's good to go walk walk with family once a while although parents will be a bit nagging. But the best part is after had lunch and back home, I'm dead flat @ home. In fact juz now aft dinner oso very dizzy and doze off again. Wah... unbelievable! Think is stress and tired and a lot of tired factors caused me to be in the stage.

Hmm... Recently quite frequent come in to blog. Feelings like a lot but express out is a bit different and not very similar to my thinking sometimes. Ha! Hm? Ah? Got some feeling but dunno what to write again.... Hoho...

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