Mood Down....

From the title already can tell a lot... Ya. My mood is not gd. Since dunno when already in bad state. Can't recall what has been written in my blog before. But thinking back to be in this family, I think I not only have to learn to tolerate, but have to learn to have a 'big heart' to forgive pple. But to have a big heart is real difficult. There are so many pple who are out to take advantage or made used of you; so many pple to look down on you due to the 'low-income money status' that you are in; so many idiots whom are actually your relatives but will only appears when talking about have a piece of the inheritance and nothing else... so many idiots...

Sad... very sad... have a partner for the rest of life? A person can share your sadness, happiness, bitterness, sourness...? I think not easy to find. Building my career?... Not easy too... tired and people won't understand we have our sad side too. Manager always mentioned that throw away all emotions to do work. I understand. It's Hard!!! Once a while can pass thru, but not always. I know I have to get out of this feeling soon. Hope by tmr morn it will be gone and back to norm to work. I know I can....

I have to get my work done well. So I can be in the 'above-avg income grp' where I can bring pride to my parents and show some idiots although I'm rich but yet I know how to 'treat pple with well manner' and not like them who treat pple like shit. Angry!!! I know I'm not suppose to scold them, not right. But they dun deserve my respect to them. Treating my parents so badly I can't take it. Well, no matter wat I must work real hard. Hope I can do it. Or to say in exact, I should say I can do it no matter spend how long to do it.

*Sob* ..... must be strong.... !!!

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