Hmm

Juz need to remind myself that I'm now with a different phrase of improvement needed, more responsibility, more hard work, co-ordination, and many more...

Tired with the recent work load I have in hand and also more things to take note of and to take care of, regardless on myself or on my new working partner.

Hmm... Stress... tired... think it's more on learning to take care of others while me moving on and also make sure that I can make it to where I want to be in the future... Hmm... a lot more to take note of... Ya... need to add more oil or diesel... whichever can help me move forwards smooth, faster and stable.

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Lost...

Hmm... Think in 1 full yr, the 'lost' feeling may have a few times. Trying hard to minimise the number of times it will occur every yr. Think it's getting better as the recovering stage is faster too. The cause of it become more clear and I know how to get out of it after I find my way and not really in the state where u don't know how.

Why I said so is recently did fall into the 'lost' feeling in work. But recovered after yesterday, 4 Mar, after determined to work out some concentrated work load for myself. Haha. Hope to earn more $$ too lah. :P

Last sat juz went to my long time secondary school classmate's wedding. Happy for her! Think this yr many of my ladies friends are getting married this yr cos during the sat wedding dinner, I received another friend's wedding invitation too. Juz beginning of Jan was another secondary school friend's wedding. Aiyo. So many weddings to go this yr. Oh ya. Still have a church wedding and another friend's wedding @ the end of the yr to go too. Ops! That also another signal me to work more and harder for more $$ for all the Ang Bao need to give.

Well, $$$ need. Hmm... Partner? Hmm.... Maybe need also ba. But still waiting for the right one to come forward or appear in front of me. Nowadays dun dare to say to anyone or show to anyone I like who. My friend asked me abt whether I'm looking for companion or wat few days back. I told him I'm looking for someone who can love me more. Hmm. Really need that cos keep giving out love to pple may be a little tired, experienced from last relationship that why. So now hopefully I can get someone will love me more than I love him one!? Depends on if I can find one like this. Is this thought also causing the 'lost' feeling? Hmm... Not sure in full but mayb that is also part of the reason. At least I can sense a bit.

Lost feeling in work can sense and resolved once work and aims are sorted out. But feeling and relationship in heart need a little more time when a lot of things must come in place. Will take some time. Not sure when but I will take it easy cos the right person won't appear in front of me so easy unless it is really meant for me. :)

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